Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Are we ready?

Well, jelly bean, are we ready?

Tomorrow marks the day we travel to the hospital and get induced to bring you into this world. Its slightly bittersweet for me.

You have been so supremely kind to me and my body the past 40 weeks and 6 days. I want you to know, the most important thing to me is that you are healthy. I have not been sick, I have been a little tired, I've had no strange cravings, I've been healthy, I've had mostly good days and Ive had a wonderful group of support people.  I am so glad that you will get to be part of this family.

You will always hold a piece of my heart. You are half of me, and half of your father.

I pray that everything goes as smoothly as possible for both of us ( you and I ). I know that we are going to do something completely new and exciting for both of us. There will be moments that will be stressful for us both, but hopefully those are overshadowed by the moments of joy that we will both experience. I am currently overwhelmed with emotions as I write this. I am experiencing feelings of happiness, nervousness, joy, excitement, and a tiny bit of sadness ( because the process of growing you is drawing to a close).

 I am excited to introduce you to the world and see your sweet face. I have wondered for so long what you will look like, what your first cry will sound like, what it will be like to finally hold you in my arms, and for you to grasp my finger with your tiny hand for the very first time. It will be amazing to finally be able to kiss your sweet face and comfort you.

I have prayed for you for so long. Countless prayers for anything and everything that you may ever need. It is a blessing and an honor to pray for you. God created you for such a special purpose, I am honored to be blessed with the task of being your momma. I can only imagine the things we both will learn as we embark on this journey together.  I have also prayed prayers of thanks so many times for being blessed with you.

In a short closing, know this, you will never be alone. God will always walk with you every single step of the way. You are a blessing, you are a miracle, and you are special. I will always try my best to treat you with the utmost respect and care. I love you so much more than you will ever know. May you always carry part of me with you. I am so excited to share my life with you. I love you.

As far as your father goes; Ryan, I love you today tomorrow and forever. Tomorrow is the day that two truly become one.

Momma <3

John 16:21 
""Whenever a woman is in labor she has pain, because her hour has come; but when she gives birth to the child, she no longer remembers the anguish because of the joy that a child has been born into the world."

Friday, October 3, 2014

40 weeks and then some...

40 weeks and then some ...
Well little jelly bean we have hit the 40 week mark ( actually I am 40 weeks and 3 days as of now; I am a suitable host body for you ) You and I are still a teamI love you. I keep telling people I'm holding you hostage- I love feeling all of your little kicks and squirms all to myself. 
Your MeMe has come down and spent time with me walking all over town trying to coax you out. We are making progress but honestly I'm in no rush. We are not hurting or extremely uncomfortable. We went to the doctor and did a biophysical scan on 10/2/14. MeMe and I got to see you practicing breathing and made sure you had plenty of fluid to stay healthy. We heard your heartbeat and the doctor said you were perfectly healthy and that if you're not here by October 8th we are gonna get induced and kick you out.  All I am saying is whenever you are ready, I'll be right there with you doing what I need to be doing, learning to be the best momma I can be to you.  This is going to be a learning process for us both, and you may not understand patience but I will do my absolute best to try and figure this out for us both. 

I can't wait to meet you little one. Take your time getting here, perfection doesn't come easy. I love you, so much more than you'll ever know.

Momma <3

 40 weeks and 2 days

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

38 weeks & 6 days

Ohhh ho ho ho ho little love muffin you are almost here!!!! I am overjoyed and filled with excitement. We went to the doctors today and heard your heartbeat. I just cant believe it. Your heart sounds perfect according to the doctor. Its beating nice and strong ( that puts me at ease )

Here is what your heart beat sounds like at 38 weeks 6 days

Baby's Heart Beat at 38 Weeks 6 Days  ( click the link )

at this point youre probably about : 19 inches long, and about 6.8 to 7 pounds

At this point you're fully formed,and ready to make your debut. However, I am leaving that completely up to you.  Your hands can grasp really well now, and you have been testing that out. I can feel you grasp and punch at things. Its okay... I dont mind too much.

Since you've turned and are ready to bust out at anytime like alien or chuck norris, i feel you try and stretch your legs. I'll tell you something, I'm short waisted. Im more legs than waist. And when you stretch, your little feet have wrapped themselves around my right side under my ribs and close to my back.. possibly over my kidneys. Tiny kicks and tickles are what I feel. The discomfort is only temporary and I honestly dont mind the few seconds of pain or crazy muscle twinges.

So until I write again, I'll post some photos and show you where we are at.

Here is your daddy at 38 weeks and 6 days.... < insert smile here> he's very handsome isn't he?

here is your momma, who doesnt look like im that pregnant from the front.
From the right side:

Front view

Left side

And my belly.. see my battle scar? Yep its pretty dang cool.. and my belly button is still an innie!

We are so close.. and I am so excited to meet you my lil youngin'

Love always, 
xoxoxoxo Momma <3

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Baby Movement at 37 weeks

I like to move it move it... 

here's the baby moving around : 37 weeks

Saturday, September 13, 2014

"I have never loved someone the way I love you"

Click this link:

A sweet song for you baby...

I have never loved someone the way I love you
I have never seen a smile like yours
And if you grow up to be king or clown, or pauper
I will say you are my favorite one in town

I have never held a hand so soft and sacred
When I hear you laugh, I know heaven's key
And when I grow to be a poppy in the graveyard
I will send you all my love upon the breeze

And if the breeze won't blow your way I will be the sun
And if the sun won't shine your way I will be the rain
And if the rain won't wash away all your aches and pains
I will find some other way to tell you you're okay

You're okay, you're okay, you're okay
You're okay, you're okay, you're okay

Baby Shower # 2

We were blessed with a second baby shower for you sweet child. Your Florida family & friends also wanted to help welcome you into the world. It was quite the perfect day. The sun was shining, the food was plentiful, and the party was wonderful. I just can't quite seem to express to you how many people are so anxious to meet you. You are very fortunate coming into these families. You will be loved so much, by so many. And the prayers, oh my goodness you have been blanketed in prayers from the very beginning!! Don't you ever think for one minute that you will ever be alone, and that you are alone- you practically have a whole army of people cheering you on.

September 6th, 2014

The party was hosted by your Aunt Tiffany, and Uncle Shad. ( you're gonna love them - what a fun house to visit ). It was held at their home in Haines City, Florida at about 1:30 pm.  What a beautiful day, just as the party began the rain started to fall. Thank goodness for the roof over our head. You received gifts and gift cards, which will all be put to good use. Car seats, diapers, wipes, clothes, bottles, etc you name it you'll have it kiddo.

Just look at that pretty smile on your daddys face... he's so handsome.

Yayyyyy!! Diaper Genie- Hazardous waste container!

Ain't he a cute lil duckie...

And a baby bath tub- not a foot spa daddy... not for your feeties..

 Your daddy and pretty Aunt Tiff

Baby feet... Not as tasty as I'd hope.. maybe they need to be grilled... haha..

 One of your cutie pie cousins

 It was a good time had by all.. Big sister Mackenzie needed her nap.

The baby butt cake was a success ( and tasty) 

There's your MomMom

 He's got his belly full... and ready for his nap

Week 36 & 37

Well little rascal, here we are at week 36 and week 37. I'm combining these two because the doctors said all that's going on from week 36-40 is you're preparing for your grand finale. Putting on weight, sleeping, dreaming, and gaining even more weight. To me, that's pretty eventful.

You weigh about 6 pounds
You measure about 18-19 inches

I can't wait for you to arrive and meet everyone ( in moderation though, because it is flu season).  They'll have to go though a rigorous hand washing process, and I may make them wear hazmat suits. Just kidding- but not about the hand washing. I don't want you to get sick and be a weak baby. You were born to be strong  

I'm so sorry that things are getting very cramped in there. I feel your every move. From your hands to your feet. You wiggling that cute little baby butt, and you wallowing your head around and burrowing around to try and get comfortable. It won't be long love bug, I promise. I'm going to try and keep you in there and safe as long as possible.  When you are ready to come out, come on. I just want to make sure that everything is perfect. 

You've put on quite the show and I've enjoyed watching you squirm around, especially after breakfast. You love it when I put peanut butter on my toast or waffle. You just move sooo much- I hope it's because you get excited.  

Time for me to go and try to finish up your room. Sweet baby, I love you more than you'll ever know, you are one in a gazillion little jelly bean.